Hey guyz.
I just need to get somethang off my chest. These past 3 weeks have been stressful for me! The stress has been brought on by my past educators. Yes, teachers, my faves, it's you! Everyday you come into Kwik Trip and ask me why the heck I am working at Kwik Trip and not doing something, idk, awesome! and I'm all like, duh, I'm stupid, not good enough, and just ehhh. Which is so damaging and FALSE!! I know my worth! I know my value! and I find that in the Father. No, I am not working full time at some awesome possum job right now, and maybe I will never be in a dream career. Honestly, at this point in my life, I am perfectly fine working at Kwik Trip. I'm okay with finding value in small things. Like Wednesdays - my favorite day of the week for some many reasons. Like Katie, Alexi, Kate, Tesa (with one S), Brittany, Isaac, Matt, Lynita, Ethan, Brock, Shania, and so many others who continually make me smile even through these hards times. Like middle schoolers because they are so hilarious and frustrating and lovable. Like late nights at Applebee's. Like making new friends, finally. I think the moments I am most unhappy are when my previous teachers or just people I know in general come in to KT and either are shocked I am working at KT and think I should be doing something else or brag about what they are currently doing with their lives. I tell myself I am not good enough. I tell myself that I should be doing something else with my life. I question everything! I am happy. Because I am choosing to be happy, as frustrated as I get. Yes, I do get frustrated. I don't really want to work at Kwik Trip, but I do because it's current. I am just so thankful to be working in general. I also don't think God thinks my Bachelor's Degree in Math was a waste. Because of the things I learned in college I get to use them at Youth Group on Wednesday nights and at KT other days. I think knowledge is really a beautiful thing because all of those things I learned in college can apply really anywhere. (side note: there are a ton of 'becauses' in this paragraph and I am sorry for that. HA). That to me is enough. I feel like right now, as I search for other jobs, I am content. No, I don't want to work at Kwik Trip and yes, I am avidly searching for other jobs but right now, this is what I got ya'll. So, I am going to make the most of it. I really just want to work hard and I know something will come along. In the meantime don't try not to treat me like I failed at something because my greatest successes aren't even school or career related. They are Christ related. So, mkay byeee. haha btw. I love you all immensely. Thanks for loving me well and reading this here blog.
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