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God has been teaching me to love His creation more and more. I spent a little over an hour the other day discovering more and more about myself through adventure. I took a little walk out on the train and I found my spiritual self. I found out a lot about myself and who God wants me to be that day. I heard the Spirit call out my name several times and guide me through the forest. I have a lot of things still to work on but I learned that I don't have to feel guilty anymore for my feelings. God really showed me that I can express myself. So, I made this video, enjoy. I pray for peace, dear reader, that you too may find the peace I experienced this day. God has been teaching me a ton about patience lately. I never want to be patient. I don't like being patient. I like to jump the gun. I like to rush. I like to speed walk to class. I like to get angry too fast. God is teaching me how to listen and be patient and sometimes that is really hard. I don't want to be patient most of the time. I am learning that it doesn't matter if things happen now or later if they are meant to happen they will happen. Knowing all of this, I still tend to rush and push for things. I want to be in the school of education sooooooooo bad. I just want to be a teacher gosh darnit but God is telling me to be patient and let Him lead the way, and if it is in His will, it will be done. This has really spoken a lot of truth with me in a lot of things this year. I can be patient in all situations whether they be my relationships with people, school, or various other things. God has been reluctant to just hand something to me which can be frustrating but it is continuing to show me how to be content with living, just living, and not expecting God to hand me things I want right away because man do I want a lot of things right now. We all want things in life, of course, why wouldn't we, things in life are great but if we jump the gun too soon they will probably be less meaningful than if we wait for them. If we wait and be patient for things then they will be so much stronger. God is continuing to show me how I can be patient and how I can pray for other peoples' patience as well. It is so cool that I can pray for other people to be patient as well as myself. I ask God every day to slow me down and show me that I can be content. It is hard, let me tell ya, but it is so worth it. I have been able to walk slowly, love people well, and listen well, when it has been needed most. God gives me patience and comfort, and I really like that.
No, not Lord Voldemort
Satan, there I said it. he is scary and real. he continues to push me around even when I tell him to stop. he is constantly yelling at me to give up. he has no heart. he is so worthless to me. Hi friends! These things have been going through my mind a lot lately. I have been thinking a lot about the devil and praying he has no hold on me. I find myself screaming a lot for him to shut up. He has no hold on me!! Sometimes when I find myself falling short I take a step back and realize that I don't want that menace (the devil), to have any sort of hold on me. This creature that lurks below the earth is freaking terrifying. He scares me, yes, but you know what's even cooler? I can literally push him back to where he came from. I can throw my arms up and worship Jesus, this gives the devil so little authority over me, over all of us really. I know I can do this but sometimes I still fall short. That is frustrating but I know that I am redeemed and I can continue to tell the devil to shut up! I tell him daily to keep his big flap shut and let me live for Jesus. I imagine the devil withering away as I pray. He withers and shrinks, and his hold on me becomes less and less. This is so cool. I love that as my relationship with God grows stronger my previous "relationship" growers weaker. The devil knows us well enough to torment us and poke us at our weakest points; like the other day, I was running (a long run), and I tripped and fell (yeah, I know embarassing right?). Well, the devil definitely struck me in that moment. He said, "Cassie you are too weak to run this half marathon in 2 weeks." I laughed, a lot, at the thought of the devil thinking he had any sort of hold on me. I actually chuckled. I said back to the devil, "Yes, devil you may know how to make me fall flat on my face but God knows how to pick me up and push me to keep going. The Lord knows how to love me more than anyone else could, including you (devil)." Keep this in mind friends, the devil may know how to push us around but God will always be there to catch you when you fall and love you more than anything in the universe could. Inspiration: "'In your anger do not sin'. Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold."---Ephesians 4:26-27 Wishing I knew all the answers.
Hoping I get into the school of education eventually. Sorting out my feelings for people and then re-evaluating how I actually feel. Second guessing myself and having lots of doubts. Praying for change in my heart and my surroundings. Praying for patience and a steady heart. Praying for people, lots of people. Hoping people don't hate me. Needing to have hard conversations, that I really just don't want to have right now. Trying not to be who I was before Jesus entered my life. Needing forgiveness for all I have done in the past. Needing to know that I am forgiven, that's so hard. Expecting more and getting less. Thinking, so much thinking. Needing a hug sometimes because life is hard my friends. Feeling stressed and that's okay. Wishing things would be obvious. Listening for the Lord and not hearing clearly. Accepting defeat when I need to be courageous. Giving up, never. Learning to keep God in the center of all my friendships. Hearing God say, "It's okay, Cassie, you are my daughter and I love you and I am here" |
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