Lately I have had such a great support system and it just reminds me how much I'm going to miss Eau Claire when I leave. It breaks my heart everyday knowing that I am leaving a day less than the day before. Each day there are less here and I don't like it. I already feel lost and lonely, just imagine when I actually leave. I don't know if I will be able to stand it. I mean I haven't lived at home for a while now. Graduation just seems unreal to me at this point. But I suppose it is a part of the school process, we have to graduate sometime, don't we? Maybe I will just fail a couple of classes. LOL just kidding. But really, these friendships I have made here are ones that I know will last a lifetime. I've shared deep stuff with these people and they mean so much to me. Like my friendship with Ethan, who totally encouraged me last night to stay connected with community when I graduate. He genuinely cares about my personal relationship with God and that just means more to me than anything. Being at home, it will be difficult to stay connected to a community who loves Jesus and wants to walk with me in that journey but I am up for the challenge. I have been reminded so much lately of my worth in Jesus and what that will look like after school so I am excited to see what God has for me in December. 1 month and 1 day folks. I can't even believe it!
Life hasn't been easy for me lately but I've been finding relief in the Lord. God is teaching me that I don't need to be perfect. That my imperfections are what make me unique and human. Lately I have been fighting depression and now, at this moment, I feel relief. I feel relief in knowing that I don't have to have it all figured out. I find relief in Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior, who conquered the grave so that I can be here, living. I don't need to find relief in other things like boys or alcohol, all I need is the Great I Am. He who does all things and loves all people. These past weeks have been stressful to say the least but through that stress I have grown in friendship with those around me and I have worked to be in right relationship with God. I have peace, now, knowing that God's got it. I don't have to worry about all the little details of my life anymore because Jesus is here, holding my hand and telling me it's going to be alright. Yes, I have missed out on some things this year because of school commitments but I know God has a purpose for that. He has allowed me to miss out on sinful things, which I am not sad about. My business has been a relief as well, simply because it has distracted me with graduation and career commitments and rather allowed me to focus on God through this messiness. No, it is never an easy thing focusing on God when you are down but when I do He speaks such truth into my life. My love for the LORD has grown this year and will continue to grow for the rest of my life. Now, isn't that just the coolest thing ever.
On a sidenote I've been listening to Lauren Daigle on repeat -- I suggest you do the same. |
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