I'm afraid of a lot of things:
bugs spiders heights boys death falling wearing lipstick appearing too smart evangelizing .. the list goes on. but one thing I will never be afraid of and that is trying my hardest to face my fears. I have one of the biggest interviews of my life today and I am not going in shy. I am not going in there in fear of not getting chosen to become a teacher. I am not going in there alone. I am going in there with Jesus! He is going to hold my hand as I face one of the biggest fears of my life. and for that I am thankful, grateful, and freakin' blessed. -Allow Jesus to hold your hand this day- for He, always wants to.
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I like doing homework now. Say what?!
I must be crazy! I like doing homework these days. Allowing my mind to focus on one thing for one time. I like diving in and learning lots. My classes kinda stink but that's a part of being a student at times. I like doing homework these days. I think I might have lost my mind. The reason homework is grand to me now is I cherish moments more often. Moments where I can learn about things I may not want to learn about but that is a challenge. and boy, do I like those. You betcha, I'll do homework all day. Currently doing some as we speak. Listening to the Lumineers as I trek through this stack of paper. Thinking of my friends who have stinkin' cared for me so much this week. Also, how Lex wants to make #HWatHT a thing.....HAHA it stands for homework at hilltop, she's a gem ain't she? I wanna color. HA I'm weird, I know. Love you friend. I have had so many things in my life to be thankful for lately and here are some of them :) God thank you for.... ...these girls and the joy they bring me. I love supporting Gracie (left) in dance. She is so kindhearted and full of life and she kicks butt at dance. #FEDTProud I love watching dance with Megan (right) she and I have been dancing together since we were youngens and now we are alumni. I just really appreciate all she does for the dance team, and for me. ...my Towers North community and celebrating Jenna's life! This was one of the most stressful days of my life...until I got to Applebees with my dear friends. I love Max and Ethan's bromance, because it just makes me giggle and I love making fun of people (in the best way possible of course ;) ) Jenna and Cory, two of my greatest friends, giggled all night long and it was Jenna's birthday!!! I am so thankful for her life. My sister goes to school with me and I just think that is really cool. Ethan and I's friendship is just weird and I really enjoy it! EP -and Nicole (cutoff) they are silly willies. I love them dearly and I love sharing my heart with EP, he has such a good soul for listening to me. Mir and Ethan's friendship (yes there are two ethans---he is EP) They LOVE stealing my phone and taking pics with it...Those jaaaerrrkkks. :p haha jk.
Hi Friends, oh my lanta, sorry it has been so long. I know some of you have been expecting a post out of me (cough Alexi) and I have just not supplied. Well here is it friends. I am going to get real with ya'll tonight. So, my heart has not been extremely into life lately. I have been distant from everything, including the people I love dearly. I keep blaming it on the fact that I am super busy with school and such things but those are all just excuses for what is really going on. I have been distant because of the business, yes, but another part is maybe I want to be distant. Maybe I want to stray away from my friends for just a lil while anyway to be "independent". Well, this is just not okay for myself and my community. I am just such a stubborn person that I haven't wanted people to help me in my struggles in so long that I kind of forgot that is what God calls me into. He calls me to humility, all the darn time! I, at this moment, have not been listening. I realized this today when I was speaking with a dear friend of mine. I was verbal processing, like I always do, and I found out that I have been neglecting a lot of things in my life. Like my life with my community in Towers North. I have "tried" to be there for the girls on my floor this semester but in reality I haven't really wanted to and I didn't know why until today. I realized today that I am trying to take too many things on at once. I just started working off-campus this semester and guys lemme tell ya, I hate it. I hate having to drive to work. I hate having no customers all day. That is just causing me to hate my days because they are filled with work and not community. God has gifted me with the ability of being personable and community centered. This semester I have just chosen to ignore it all. I am not even sure why. I just have. I have ignored my responsibilities as a leader and that has really hurt my community. Poo. I love the ladies of TN 6th floor so darn much. Why the heck have I been ignoring them? Well, I honestly couldn't tell ya. That is where I am at right now, to be honest.
But I can tell ya something else! I am going to take a step forward in leaning on God and seeking Him through all of this. Whatever that means for my life and my community...I'm not yet sure but God does have a plan and a future for me and I am so glad to be able to drink that in, each and everyday. I will also not let the devil take a foothold on my life any longer! In other news: I got a job offer at Yellowstone National Park for the summer.....and I'm taking it!! #BOOM |
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