Hi Friends, oh my lanta, sorry it has been so long. I know some of you have been expecting a post out of me (cough Alexi) and I have just not supplied. Well here is it friends. I am going to get real with ya'll tonight. So, my heart has not been extremely into life lately. I have been distant from everything, including the people I love dearly. I keep blaming it on the fact that I am super busy with school and such things but those are all just excuses for what is really going on. I have been distant because of the business, yes, but another part is maybe I want to be distant. Maybe I want to stray away from my friends for just a lil while anyway to be "independent". Well, this is just not okay for myself and my community. I am just such a stubborn person that I haven't wanted people to help me in my struggles in so long that I kind of forgot that is what God calls me into. He calls me to humility, all the darn time! I, at this moment, have not been listening. I realized this today when I was speaking with a dear friend of mine. I was verbal processing, like I always do, and I found out that I have been neglecting a lot of things in my life. Like my life with my community in Towers North. I have "tried" to be there for the girls on my floor this semester but in reality I haven't really wanted to and I didn't know why until today. I realized today that I am trying to take too many things on at once. I just started working off-campus this semester and guys lemme tell ya, I hate it. I hate having to drive to work. I hate having no customers all day. That is just causing me to hate my days because they are filled with work and not community. God has gifted me with the ability of being personable and community centered. This semester I have just chosen to ignore it all. I am not even sure why. I just have. I have ignored my responsibilities as a leader and that has really hurt my community. Poo. I love the ladies of TN 6th floor so darn much. Why the heck have I been ignoring them? Well, I honestly couldn't tell ya. That is where I am at right now, to be honest.
But I can tell ya something else! I am going to take a step forward in leaning on God and seeking Him through all of this. Whatever that means for my life and my community...I'm not yet sure but God does have a plan and a future for me and I am so glad to be able to drink that in, each and everyday. I will also not let the devil take a foothold on my life any longer! In other news: I got a job offer at Yellowstone National Park for the summer.....and I'm taking it!! #BOOM
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