Something I have loved every since I have been three years old is dance. Dance is a way to release built up energy and channel that energy into something beautiful. I enjoyed dancing my whole life; dance has caused some major problems along the way though. I am sad to say dance has not always been my passion especially during my junior year of high school. The pressure was on to make the Varsity team once again because I had not made the Varsity team for three years in a row. Some background knowledge of the Faribault Emeralds Dance Team (FEDT), the team I danced for, is that typically you dance on Junior Varsity for 2 years then move up to Varsity. Well that was not the case for me, I danced four years on JV and that was super discouraging. All I wanted my whole life, at that point in my life, was to dance on the FEDT! That was all I wanted every year when I tried out then faced another huge disappointment. It sadden me that I could not make the team. As all my friends in dance were moving up to Varsity I was staying back but the relationships with the younger girls I made were so heart warming. These relationships with girls who were years younger than me became so great that we were almost inseparable. I knew these ladies looked up to me as well so I had to be a good role model. These girls kept me trying for Varsity, it was something I really wanted to accomplish, so I did just that. I am in love with performing and that has been a challenge to accomplish at college, sure I could have tried out for the dance team at school but I didn't and I am not quite sure why. I guess I have always felt like I would never be good enough. This is something I struggle with in life as well. I face many problems with insecurity and I don't really know why. I feel insecure at times which can lead to emotional downfall. It has been a patchy couple of weeks in my faith as well and I am unsure why. I have been asking myself how I can grow closer to God before winter break approaches and yet I am pulling away. It has been a big challenge but I know God's glory will reign. God is a powerful God and what I have been feeling as of late will cease and my struggles will fade, with time of course. Something I learned about dance is striving for what you want in life. I did finally make the Varsity dance team after years of trying out. All I ever did was try my hardest and sometimes it wasn't good enough but then other times it was definitely good enough. I danced on the FEDT for two years and I wouldn't change those two years for anything. Dance has taught me to never give up on my dreams even if they take awhile to fulfill.
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