Hey ya'll, so I have realized that I have truly been neglecting my blog lately, silly me.
I have really been up to so much this past month or so it is kinda ridiculous. I have found out that I am graduating in 2 short months which definitely caught me by surprise. I am not quite sure yet if it is a good thing or a bad thing but I am excited for the adventure God has in store for me. So, I guess let's back up a little bit to the start of the school year: 1st week of SUPER senior year - move in, humidity, dorm room, yellowstone story telling, neglecting God, education school, studying how to be a teacher, studying for my PRAXIS II - Math Content Knowledge, running into some pals whom I've missed dearly, lotsa homework, reuniting with aBa, longboarding adventures by my lonesome because Alexi is not here. 2nd week - stress induced depression like symptoms and not understanding why, NSO - new student outreach, lotsa intervarsity stuff, again neglecting God, trying not to tell anymore yellowstone stories, visits from Alexi <3 , listening to Cory and how she is interacting with girls in her study, more PRAXIS II studying, Racy's dates, talks with Jenna and more longboarding. 3rd week - depression worsens and I find myself trapped from reality only going through the motions, neglecting God even more, spending less time studying and more time sleeping, hanging with no-one at any time, Reason for all of this: I took my PRAXIS II and failed it. (side note: the praxis test determines if I move on in the education program i.e. if one doesn't pass this test they cannot student teach meaning they cannot get certified to teach.) #IWASPRETTYBUMMED 4th week - sadness: I miss my friends from Yellowstone, I'm not sure when I am going to see them again, I don't know what I'm going to do with my life now that I didn't pass my test, meetings with advisers to discuss the future, deciding to graduate early without certificate, getting angry with God, not understanding God's plan for my life, meetings/revelations with Jenna (what a treat she is), getting out of this funk. ......(don't ask me how all that happened in a week, i'm not really sure, but it did) And folks, that brings us to today. Where I am realizing how to tell God how I feel, even though He already knows. He wants me to talk to Him and lemme tell ya how comforting that is to know. I may not know what the future brings but come December I will have a bachelors degree in Math teaching and I know God will use me. Whether or not I know how, I need to trust that. My prayer for you, is that you allow God to use you too. He will use us for great things, if we let Him.
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